Kev,
OHMYGOD!
It's been 20 days, almost 3 weeks without you! I don't understand how time works nowadays. The days go slow but the weeks go fast. As I expected, the first week after you left was a whirlwind of decisions, messages from friends, and raw emotions. But after that it became quiet and I am left with a deep ache in my soul.
I kinda wonder what the point of life is now. It was so full of YOU, the good and the bad. Now it's sort of empty. I feel like I'm waiting, like something is suppose to happen but I don't know what.
I need to find a new purpose once I'm able to function again. The way it is now I cry whenever I go out. Every place reminds me of you. I broke down in front of the Lemonade Rock Stars in Ralph's the other day. I walked down it to get T some peach ice tea, she said I don't have to buy if for her anymore, which was sweet. But of course I will - to eliminate everything that reminds me of you I'd have to move and even then, I'd have you in my head, all the memories.
Love,
Mom
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